Thursday, April 21, 2011
Sorry for not updating much.
Been busy with school + work.
Seriously.
Even i dont have time for family right now.
But tries to give time to them.
Just enduring the ache im having right now.
Feels like i have not been resting well ever since i started working.
School? I don't know eh. I don't want to give a heck care anymore.
I just feel like quitting when teachers teach & i dont understand.
That's the problem. dah cakap. semua tak mahu dengar. How?
Ever since school started, things just went per normal.
Canteen + Food + Lesson + Break+ Lesson.
Then it continues, home + bathe + ready for work + go work.
Ohmy freaking god, seriously im tired.
Its not everyday i work uhs, but sometimes school only, makes me tired.
This is what makes me slim down and i have irregular sleeps && appetite.
Finding money, Life, School is not going easy on me.
Lesser time with girlfy. Sorry girl, hope your atuk recover fast alright.
Tomorrow don't forget, we have an outing. I'll wake you up.
Been busy with school + work.
Seriously.
Even i dont have time for family right now.
But tries to give time to them.
Just enduring the ache im having right now.
Feels like i have not been resting well ever since i started working.
School? I don't know eh. I don't want to give a heck care anymore.
I just feel like quitting when teachers teach & i dont understand.
That's the problem. dah cakap. semua tak mahu dengar. How?
Ever since school started, things just went per normal.
Canteen + Food + Lesson + Break+ Lesson.
Then it continues, home + bathe + ready for work + go work.
Ohmy freaking god, seriously im tired.
Its not everyday i work uhs, but sometimes school only, makes me tired.
This is what makes me slim down and i have irregular sleeps && appetite.
Finding money, Life, School is not going easy on me.
Lesser time with girlfy. Sorry girl, hope your atuk recover fast alright.
Tomorrow don't forget, we have an outing. I'll wake you up.
I believe that sometimes telling the truth does not pays the price for it.
For some reason when you already tell them the truth, they still have doubt in you.
They will keep on having this mindset that you still keep something behind them.
A life without you its like EMPTY.
There is no meaning for me to live any longer.
Seeing you a distance from me its like wanting you beside me.
Yes, its true that this is what i choose what i want to be.
But having faith in myself not being to have you is DIFFICULT.
Texting is not an issue for me, but facing you.
I need to have patience, endurance & fake smiles.
Its not been easy for me after i leave you.
My happiness and laughter that i always have, it disappear.
Everything people do or say, i just find it wrong to me when its right.
My mind is not at ease right now. Still finding ways to overcome it.
Although its just two months plus, i find there is a lot of memories.
I never thought of those memories that is negative, the positive is always in my mind.
Okay, what's done is done. i can't change it.
it takes a long time for me to decide; 8:23 PM.
